Knitting socks might be fun

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crafting, home, knitting, life, work

Some days I just feel like an old lady, not because I feel tired, but because some days, I have noticed, I Ido alot of cooking, cleaning…or knitting ha ha!

I bought some yarn last week, but there’s just one problem, as usually. I start over,and over, and over again because I don’t think it’s good enough. My intention was to knit a pair of mittens, black and white. But they became too big, and I couldn’t find a pattern in size S. I began knitting a pair of black mittens with a heart on, but then they,too, became too big because they were in size M. So I thought, well I’ll knit socks instead so I started all over.. I chose size 37 but they became too big.. I just started all over again, but this time I chose size 36. It might be that I knit too loosely, but it doesn’t seem like that. I think I just want it to fit perfectly.. and next time I’ll see if I can’t find better yarn. The yarn I found was pretty expensive, but it was too thick.. Anyways, we’ll see how this ends. If they won’t fit, I’ll knit children’s socks, because It won’t take so long time ha ha!

I “started” working this week in a home service unit in Malmö. We go home to people 65+ clean their homes, give them medicines, and help them in their daily life etc. It’s a pretty tough job, but I rather work than sit at home. And I really need the money. On the 4th of June there’s a class (they’ll talk about medicine… It’s the same thing every year)I have to attend, but after that I’ll start working on a daily basis. We work from 7-15:30, weekends too, but only 40h/week.

I also signed up for a law class at the Lund University, so this summer I’ll study full-time while I work full-time. I wish myself good luck! :)

Don’t kill my motivation

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home, life, motivation, pictures, thoughts, work

Have you thought about something?

Until you are in a certain age people keep asking you “what do you want to be when you grow up?”.
When you’re five they expect you to answer astronaut or maybe rockstar. When you’re a bit older they expect you to say nurse or maybe teacher.

There is one thing I can’t understand. It’s like we have to be “something”. Everything else is confusing people. Just because you don’t have a title doesn’t mean you are no one. Right?

A part of this is: Who says just because you are a nurse, you have to have that job for the rest of your life. No one!

Next time someone asks me I’ll say when I grow up I want to be Bonnie Tyler and own a show like Oprah. Dah! The funny thing is people still asks me and I’m 25. Haha!

I made biscotti today :) delicious!

I would take the job, if I got the chance

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Employment, life, school, work

..I’m still looking for a job. But today I was on another interview and I think it went pretty well.

Job description: count passengers on rural busses – mornings, days, evenings, and nights. For how long? About a month. This also means waiting in the middle of the night somewhere, for a bus to come so you can count how many passengers that get on/off the bus. Not so funny, but whatever..

If I got the job, I would take it because I really need a job, that doesn’t mean I would do a lousy job – that’s just not me to do anything like that. But I really hope I’ll get something better, soon :)

Today is Friday! yah! Friday is always a good day :)

 

I’m not going to use ugly words..because I love life!

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home, inspiration, life, pictures, thoughts, work

Gosh! I just want to say go and #€&(!!”###!!! yourselves!! Whoooaaa!

I was so reminded of my past today. I’m not saying anything more. I need to pull myself together!  I need to do my best, not be lazy and fool around. I know it’s possible, and if anyone says anything else, shut up! Whooaa! I’m getting angry :) during the last year I heard too many, you’ll never manage that, and you are too blah blah and too blah blah! Prove me I’m wrong! Who says you’re right? After (I think) the worst week in my life, with constant pain, I feel full of energy! And do you know what? EVERYTHING is possible in your mind, and EVERYTHING starts with a thought! I’ll get myself a job, and THEN, when I have a job, Erik has promised we’ll go on vacation! I want to go to London again :)

Step one is to set your goals, step to figure out small steps to reach them!

Today, I have moved on!! Thank god, it feels so good..!!

The sun is shining, the birds are singing, the flowers bloom, I feel great, and I think this weekend will be good too! Bring it on.. I’m ready!!

Job hunting

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home, Job hunting, life, work, writing

I applied for 7 jobs today, Yah! I have to set goals so  can reach them. My goal is to apply for 7 jobs/week. This week is 9 jobs so far. I also bought a pretty cute (large) note-book :) Tomorrow and Friday It’s  the therapist course I’m taking. I hope it’ll be fun! At least we’ll spend time in the spa..

 

Wednesday – a job inteview, and an aching wrist

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blogging, coffee, home, ikea, Job interview, life, malmö, Starbucks, Triss, work

I was on a job interview today, it was fun! I think there were like 30 other people wh also had applied for the job, but you never know. I can only hope for the best.

Then, on my way from there to the bus I fell, head over heals, but backwards. There was a frozen puddle with snow on, of course, why? Why do I live in this icy country? No one saw me, that’s good. My wrist and hand hurts, that’s’ bad, but I think it’ll be better in a couple of days :)

There was three women who interviewed us fo 2,5 minutes each. They asked me if I was still living with my parents. No I don’t. And I haven’t done that since.. I can’t remember but 4 years maybe.. I really hope I wasn’t rude, because sometimes when people ask me I put too much stress on the NO! :) It was not my intention.

I got a Triss lott today, and won 50kr. That’s not much, but t’s something. 5 l milk, or a magazine, or 2,5 kg of apples, or 1 top/t-shirt from H&M, or 5 coffee cups from IKEA, or 2 cups of coffee from Espresso House.

Starbucks will open at the central station in Malmö in maybe 2 or 4 weeks. Every teen from the area (and all their friends, and everyone they know, and probably everyone else too) will be there. I’ll wait until the storm is over. I really want a take-way cup from there, because they’re airtight and coffeetight, but I’ll wait. At least 2 months ;)

 

Playgrounds are for children, right?

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life, pictures, Playground, school, skateboard, thoughts, work

Yesterday we (Erik and I) took a walk, and we walked by this playground. OMG! When I see something like this I wish I was 5 years old LOL! Why didn’t they build things like these in the early 90′s? We had to walk in there just to take a look. Then we passed a skateboard “park”. I mean watch out so you don’t fall down there.. It looks incredibly dangerous :)

Anyways, I don’t have a job, but I have this stupid idea to apply for one job every day. Haha! I’ve finished school. If you didn’t know.. all this means I’m kind of unemployed. I’m NOT used to this and it feels like I’m going crazy. Last year I had three jobs at the same time, which on the other hand wasn’t good for me.. It’s had to find a balance. Last week I took a walk to a pet shop (is that what you call it?) and looked at the guinea pigs and rabbits. Talk about wasting your time. This is just NOT my style, but I have promised myself not to work in an old people’s home again. Ever! I could almost start going to church, and pray, so I won’t have to do it, so I really hope I’ll find a job soon :)

Hope you all are having a good start on the week. I like Mondays!

Yuk!

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life, school, thoughts, work

I hate the stupid situation that I’m in. I have two weeks until the thesis I’m writing should be done. I have spent the last 11/2 month on writing. Now, my tutor says I have to redo and rewrite like everything. It’s not so easy when they change their minds 46898631 times, it’s kind of bad for the writing process to get different advice every time you ask. Usually things work out :) but I’m just so freaking tired and sad, it’s better to say what you mean from the beginning – that’s my advice to tutors. :)

Look so many magazines I got!

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birthday, elle, family, fashion, life, magazine, work

Look so many magazines I got! Today I got to attend sone kind of event at work. It was a publishing magazine that had invited people who talked about media and new trends. I also got this present from my mother today, I’ll open it tomorrow :). I hope you all are having a great week!

Today was a strange day..

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alone, family, home, life, school, thoughts, work

Today when I went home from school I had the weirdest feeling in my body. It was just strange. My parents are in Dubai, Erik is not at home, neither my sister – means no phone calls or texts. Don’t interpret this as something bad. I woke up early this morning, went to school 3 hours later to study before the lecture. I had lunch, by my self. Took a walk in the city, by myself. After school I had a meeting with a teacher, and then I took the train and bus home. When I came to Malmö I thought “what the hell am I doing?” I caught myself in a strange feeling that I had the option to kind of do what I wanted and it felt so good. I needed to buy some things in the grocery store, but instead of doing it where I live I walked by Hemköp. Something was wrong with the thing that reads the code on the “products” the scanner? so I didn’t have to pay full price – the guy who worked there didn’t know how to change it so he just said “just because it’s you, you don’t have to pay”. LOL! It’s never that I feel lonely, and actually I like to be alone sometimes – but today it was different. I was alone, but it felt better than it has ever done before. I think you can say that it was longing for something but in a good way, to have the trust or something. Anyway it was good.

My internal alarm clock seems to work..

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falsterbo, fun, life, photo, pictures, school, Sweden, weekend, work

Usually I set the alarm on my Iphone, just like I did yesterday evening. Today I woke up at 05:50… I thought: ahh, annoying, why can I never sleep longer.. two minutes later my “real” alarm clock started to beep.. I think I must have pushed the alarm button in my sleep. It was kind of scary ha ha!

And now I’ll show you some pictures from last weekend. Erik and I went to Falsterbo and took a walk. The weather was so nice, it’s almost November but it’s quite warm. We have incredibly much to do in school now with exams and essays and 10 000 other things.. I can’t wait until it’s over :)

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On my way to school

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bus, life, photo, pictures, school, train, work

An update

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blog, life, school, work

As usually, I have too many things going on, how can I stop this? only I can..the question is if I really have so much things going on or if it’s just the feeling?  The other day I bought a bunch of new clothes. I need to buy more. It’s incredible how long it was since I bought new clothes.. We have pretty much going on in school, and then I’m working extra (10h/ week).. but I’m having a lot of fun. The other day I went to Ikea, that’s always fun! And Ie started to think that the counseling course I’m taking is fun again. Now I’m looking for clients :) I’m having Friday off! Yahh! And now I’ve begun to look for a job (I need a job after Christmas, no I’m not working extra as Santa’s daughter lol! but this is my last semester at the university).. I hope something good comes up!

 

A healthier lifestyle

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family, food, friends, health, life, pictures, school, work

Sometimes we (read I) need to STOP! and think about what we are doing. I guess that was what I did last week, or the week before. Something happened that made me think: is this really how I want things to be like? This is kind of a boring way to start a post, so now I’ll write about the fun stuff:

I have said “no” to some extra jobs I had before, so no more babysitting or working in an old people’s home. This means I’ll have more time over, which I honestly need to feel well. The last week has been kind of very good. I have had time to be at home, I have watched tv! I have had time for cooking, I have taken walks, slept a little bit longer (I still love waking up early ha ha!), I have taken time to think, and I have had time alone (sometimes I need that, or I think everyone needs that.. it’s somehow good to be alone sometimes). And I have spent time with people I like! I have learned new things, and I’ve had the opportunity to learn other people things too.

I had a blogg-post published on yourlife.nu (thanks to you who found it for me, because I had NO IDEA about it! ha ha! It kind of made my day!) (unfortunately it’s not viewable anymore).

Then I started blogging again, honestly it feels good. The last 9 months have been kind of dazing because I’ve reassessed many things, thanks for that (but I’m back now). The last months I have worked too much, but the only one I can blame for that is myself. I’ve learned my lesson, again. There is that balance you have to find between work and free-time and if you can’t find some kind of balance things don’t feel good. Things don’t smell as good, they don’t taste as good, and noting feels as good as it actually can do if you don’t find that balance. Awareness is always the first step towards a change, it also means responsibility, but I like to be responsible ha ha!

I feels like I have eaten a little too much unhealthy stuff during the last months too, too little fruit for example. Today I had a grapefruit :) I like grapefruits. Antioxidants and vitamins are good for you!

Hope you all will have a really good weekend! I’ve decided to have a really good Friday and tomorrow I’m going to see my family (it was at least 3 months since last time) I hope the trains will be on time ;)

Today Is Bike Day. 15 km by Bike!

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bike, home, life, school, work

Why? I’m working today. This morning I went up at 6:00 (“snoozed” until 6:20) took my bike from home at 7:00 – it took me 20 minutes to get to the house. Then I couldn’t figure out how the baby car seat was working (I know nothing about children’s things ha ha ha!) we had to hurry so I had to take the bike, it took us 40 minutes to get to the pre-school. Then I took the bike back home, because I had to take a shower, ha ha! Then I ran to catch the bus, took the bus to the train station, the train to Lund, walked to school, later walked back.. then the trains were cancelled!! so it took me 2 hours to get home.. ran home, packed my bag, took the bike to the pre-school, then we took the bike back, it took us 30 minutes. I think that’s almost 15km by bike today!!!! ha ha! Not my bike, but it’s really nice! Tomorrow we are going to take the car!!! Someone made dinner today and I could just eat, it was ages ago since that happened! (or maybe once last month, lol! but before that..)

A Lot of Things to Do.

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life, school, thoughts, work

Currently I have more than just a bunch of things going on, and that’s why I’m not good at writing comments :) if anyone is wondering. I’ll be at this course Wednesday through Friday, and then I guess I have to do all the things I’ll miss in school during the weekend. Life can seem hard sometimes, but eyes on the target! ;) ..and focus. Where focus goes energy flows :)

Today in a Bunch of Words

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garden, home, life, poodle, running, thoughts, work

I’ve seen this ugly garden decoration, I don’t even want to think about how expensive it was. AND WHY??? CHOOSE A POODLE??? Ha ha! Today

I ran today, only 4km, I’m aiming for 5km. And I want to run those 5 km in 28 minutes. according to me that’s possible. Today I ran 1,5 km, walked 500m and ran 1,5km and walked 500m – in 24 minutes – that means I had 3 minutes to run that 5th km. If I walk less next time, or run slower, and walk less. I can do those 4km in 22 min. :) It was freezing cold, when I came back I was so cold that I could barely feel my fingers, even though I had gloves on.. brrr.

We have an exam next week, and suddenly I’m motivated to achieve something, and I’ve decided that I want to pass the exam. I usually do, but sometimes I think I want to fail,  just because. I have also found a new client (school stuff thing), and that made me really happy, because I think that working  is fun! 

On Wednesday or Thursday I’ll get a new shower YIPIEEEE! And tomorrow I’m going to Malmö, as far as I know today, for some shopping. I need to buy some hair products and make up things. I’m still waiting for my eye glasses!!!

I promised myself that if I was studying for 2 hours I could go to the small mall where I live and look for a new pair of jeans. That’s what I’m going to do now :) after I have had dinner, so I won’t buy anything unhealthy lol! (I bought candy, and didn’t find any jeans LOL!)

This weekend in pictures. Or – I have lost 4 kilos since Christmas and my left leg consists of 28% fat.

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coaching, event, fun, health, life, malmö, pictures, wellness, work

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Yepp that’s true, at least according to the scales. I got this receipt. It says: I need to eat ~1200 kcal/day if I want to remain in this shape. Ok, haha! that sounds like a little. I thought 2000 kcal was good. My BMI =20 which was good too. The scary part is that I have lost 4 kg since Christmas, isn’t that pretty much? I spent 1 1/2 week at my parents place and thought I would die. Normally I never eat pork or beef, but.. hrmm.. no explanation needed (familes sometimes try to feed yo with everything). When I came home I felt fat and not in shape, but didn’t think so much about that . I don’t have a bathroom scale at home, so it was kind of a shock. Doesn’t matter because I feel better :).

Ok, a short explanation to the pictures. I “signed up” because I wanted to “work” a little. So what we did was that we.. my gosh it’s hard to explain. You can see the white “t-shirts” ok, all of us were wearing them. It was a wellness/beauty event – and during those days we represented ”The company” (that I bought the course from that I’m currently taking). You could do like a test  to calculate your “real” age, and pretty much everyone wanted to do that – people from our team was doing the tests/analyses. I was holding 3 presentations, and was coaching people (we did stress and happiness-tests). We are now allowed to attend a course in mindfulness for free (at least that is what I think). Believe me there was alot a lot of work behind the organization of everything, and I guess it took a lot of time, and meant hard work. It was alos many visitors, at least on the second day (Saturday)

It was interesting to meet all the people, both the other ones in the “team”, but also all the other people we met.  Anyways, together we were very good, no doubt, ha ha! (My problem is that I can get kind of bitchy haha! Not very funny. And what I don’t like is when people don’t tell me I am. That’s the scariest part. Ha ha! I want to know when I have done something wrong.)I’m amazed that the coaching went so well. People said it was rewarding and that’s always fun to hear.

It was kind of fun to look around and see what the other companies there were selling.

They called me back :)

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christmas, pictures, presents, spanish, work

Today a man called me back about the tutoring job and I’m going there tomorrow on an interview. I guess I have a chance. It’s a company called My Academy, and through them parents can find people who can help their children with their homework.

I think that children learn when they think things are fun. Many people don’t like to study because they just don’t feel like it, everything else is better, I guess that is the feeling they have in their bodies. It’s like when you have had a party, and then you have to clean, who wants to do that.. haha! The only way through which you can change how you feel is through how you think. If you change your thought pattern, you can also to some extents change your feelings.. Another thing that I think is important is to take things on the right level. It’s better to start low and go up to a higher lever fast, than to start on a high level and then have to go down. I think it’s sad that so many parents expect so much from their children.

Tomorrow is also Spanish course. The teacher called us 3 weeks ago and said she was going on vacation. Ehh! meant no lessons for 2 weeks. This also means we have to go 2 weeks longer, which I don’t have time for, but I can’t get my money back. But it wasn’t that expensive, but anyway. I mean she could have told us in advance. I’m soo excited for the course that starts next week, it’s going to be fun to meet new people and I really hope it’s going to be interesting. Sometimes I’m so freaking afraid of the teachers haha! And I have had this woman as a teacher before, and gosh!!! she scares me haha! It’s not that it’s something she does, it’s rather that she doesn’t do anything that scares me. She doesn’t say anything and then, blah! comes everything.. haha!

These are some pictures, first one of the flowers I bought on my birthday, a picture I took today on my way to the library (just 2 minutes from my apartment), and some things I bought for my sister for Christmas (some kind of not very ordinary tea (bed time tea and pomegranate tea), those kind of sugar things, a whatever you call it that you can put bread or cookies in, and scented candles. They already have cups, so I won’t buy that. She really like tea, so I kind of made like a themed present. I’ll also buy a pair of ear rings for her, since this stuff is for her boyfriend too. I bought that paper too, I really like the color and the pattern..

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An update

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Nothing moves my sister!! I tried to get her to make some kind of funny face haha! not even my scary-I’m-freaking out face made a difference haha!

Ok, yesterday my sister and my mom came here to visit. It was the first time since I moved here in August. It takes a while to drive so they could only stay for 3 hours, but it was kind of fun. We went to a mall and I bought this dress, a pink shirt, and a black cardigan I love!

Tuesday I had a facial treatment. That was one of the best things I have ever done. Afterwards my face looked like hell, but now my skin is much smoother than before. I thought I had problems with pimples, but the girl there said it was something that my skin was dry, and some products makes the skin dry, and then blah blah blah.. so I bought a cleanser with some kind of AHA acid thing, and she said it would help and I really hope so. I can’t understand that I didn’t do this earlier.

I can’t stop thinking about one thing and that is what I “should” do. I mean I just go to school, I can’t feel a meaning with that. That makes me feel.. not very happy. As I have said before living where I live now, is no good for me. I have decided that I should go to the library every day and do school stuff there instead, because I can’t be in here. It’s driving me crazy!

A couple of months ago I felt really good, I don’t know if you remember that I had a goal that I had set. Anyway, now it feels like I’m back to my old habits and ways of thinking and I have to do something about that. My problem is that every time I do something it feels like I’m not worth it. I think: I have to take it easy this weekend. But then when I do I don’t like it because it feels like I should do something else instead. Today I felt like eating a muffin, but then I thought.. no I can’t. And then lost my appetite completely.

Now it feels like I have to do something, I can’t just sit here and wait for better times to come. Everything is so freaking ironic. My birthday is in like 3 weeks, but I can’t have a party because there it’s too small here. So I have told my mom that no one can come here. It might sound stupid, but it’s true. Now I thought that me and some others maybe could go and just have lunch or something. But I don’t know. I have a lot of cousins and aunts and other relatives, but I don’t know. I have told my mom and my sister that I want a DVD box, but we’ll se haha!

So now I’m thinking about what is the right thing to do. Maybe there are some alternatives. Haha! this is “self-coaching”.

• I have to move somewhere.
• I have decided that I should try to like every day and do the best out of everything, because otherwise nothing matters.
• I could find a job, and then I would have something to do after school, but I don’t want to work at an old people’s home or anything similar.
• I have to study full-time at the university this spring.
• I thought about taking that extra course too, but I’m still not sure.
• Gosh there are so many alternatives.

Anyway I have to do something, maybe planning my time, and structure things would be the first step. Sometimes it feels like I’m just talking. I talked to a girl in my class today and she said: I have a lot of friends and we talk a lot, but we just talk about the same things, over and over again. Like normal ordinary things, but we never get any further. Nothing happens, and I want things to happen, because I don’t like how it is. Then I started thinking, do we just listen to what people say, but nothing more. I don’t say that we have a responsibility. It’s hard to explain, but I guess that I agree with her to some extent. Sometimes you talk to people, but do they really listen. I don’t know if you understand what I mean, because it feels like I can’t explain it. But as I said, maybe I have to plan my time, so I’ll have like working days, but with school things instead. I know it doesn’t take long time for me to learn, and if I focus, I’ll have free-time in the afternoons/evening – depending on our schedule. I think that would be good.