Things I’m afraid to tell you

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I found this blogging idea here and thought I had to give it a try too. I guess we all have those things we are afraid to tell one another. This is a bit scary and I don’t know if I’ll reveal some secrets, but hang on and we’ll see..

- I don’t like birds. The beak, the feathers, the whole bird. I don’t like it. I don’t like when they fly too close to me, and fact that they might bump into a window and die so easily is kind of gross. Ok, this is kind of weird ha ha! but it’s the truth. Swans are the birds I like least, but I definitely don’t like sea gulls either.

- I like cleaning. It’s fun to have a clean home and I like when things are in an arranged chaos. But, this only means I like to clean when I feel like it, not when anyone else tells me to. I guess this is just pure stubbornness.

- I’m a terrible drinker. I barely never drink any alcohol, and I know many people wonder why. I think it has to do with limits. It’s like when you buy candy, you eat until you feel you don’t want more. I  don’t think my “limits” stretch as much as many other people’s limits do.

- I’m a terrible dancer, but I still think it’s fun to dance.

- Sometimes I think it would be good for me if I didn’t think so much about everything.

- I don’t like when people don’t trust me, because if I say I’ll do something I’ll keep my promise, and If I don’t it probably has to do with something that came between that I didn’t know about. Like when you’ve promised to call someone, but got the wrong number.

- I also think I’m quite afraid to tell other people about my dreams, I need to improve because I know it’s not until you set goals you can reach them.

- The last one, I like surprises, but on the other hand I guess everyone does :)

Sun reflections

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Is it summer soon? The walls in my apartment are full of reflections from (of?) the sun. It’s like having 10 000 tiny pieces of the sun in here, lovely. The only downside is my neighbour plays really, really loud music, like usually. Why? The funny things is that she always plays the same songs over and over again. And these songs are the 10 first songs on the top list on Spotify + some Whitney Houston songs.  I sound like a really boring person ha ha! but it’s the same thing every day (as far as I know), the music is on from 19:00-23:00. Oh well..you shouldn’t focus on the downsides, it’s better to focus on the upsides ;)

I think it’s kind of funny that almost everything has an opposite. What is even funnier is that (often) it’s not until we’ve seen the opposite of whatever it is that we appreciate the other side, or vice versa. I’d better stop writing, time for a cup of tea :)

Don’t take it for granted

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I bet you have seen all those “quotes” that people share on Facebook. Sometimes I just get so tired of them. When will it stop? But yesterday I had to reconsider my attitude towards the whole thing. I saw a shorter text on gratefulness (later the same day I found the same text on a blog). It really made me start to think about how often we take things and people for granted.

Sometimes we think so much about what we don’t want to lose that we forget what we really have. We take people we know, friends, and family for granted. We think (without really thinking about it) that they will be there for us forever. Now I’m not just thinking about the fact that no one lives forever, but that people they come and go in our lives. At some point we might stop, and realize that everyone are gone. But where?

I guess it’s about giving and taking. I’m that kind of person who likes to give, and I guess that’s why I (in some way) think that we shouldn’t always count everything = just because he/she didn’t help you once, doesn’t mean that you have to say no him/her because you have to get something back. Now I don’t mean money, it could be our time or thoughts. But back to where we were, I guess you come to a point when you feel – I’m only giving, but I get nothing back and when you have reached that point things are slowly running out in the sand, or how should I explain it.

The interesting thing is that it sometimes seems like those people who say they never “get anything back” are those who don’t give. That might be logical, but I think it all has to do with being grateful or not.

Anyways, think about this “sometimes the best way to hold on to something is to let go”. If we aren’t grateful for what we have, we can’t really appreciate it, and it’s going to feel like we have “nothing” no matter what we do. But there’s an opposite to this. It’s hard to be grateful for everything, but trying is sometimes good enough. If we stop for only one minute/day to think about what we really have I honestly think we would feel just a slightly bit happier. And do you know what? Somehow I think that little speck of happiness is big enough to grow and become something bigger. Try to make a list of 10 things you’re grateful for and see how many of these things you take for granted.

I found these pictures earlier today when I was cleaning, time is sometimes running fast. I like to remember the happy moments :)

Me, my mother, sister and grandmother. This picture was taken (by my dad) when we were on vacation in Denmark. This is my sister when she was younger. When I was younger I had the nicest hairstyle ever, and apparently I liked to put “makeup” on my dolls too ;)

Graduating from “highschool”. That’s my grandmother and me while I still had braces ha ha!

Be who you are, people will thank you!

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My sister and I :)

Maybe you think: Oh, but I’m lazy, sometimes I don’t do this and that. But is that what you do or who you are?

You might not agree, but honestly, often we try to be someone we aren’t. It’s not wrong to have people we look up to. It’s good. But you are not them, or?

You might not agree, but isn’t it about being able to have an open mind. I’ll give you an example: I like the colors pink and purple. If I had the opportunity I would easily buy a purple couch (don’t tell anyone I had one 2 years ago). But this doesn’t mean I dress all in pink and purple, and neither does it mean I dress in black and white because that’s what people tell me to do. My point here is, if you remove the all the pink from me, it’s not me any longer.

You might not agree, but I think there’s just one like you. No one else. There’s just on person who can be best at being you, and that’s YOU!

You might not agree when I say it’s easy being you because, honestly, it isn’t. You need to be brave to be you, but on the other hand I know that often we regret what we didn’t do, not what we did.

You might not agree on this either, but I think you get tired of not being you. It takes energy to pretend.

You might not agree, but when you are YOU, people will notice a difference, because you’ll shine through.  

At least in my opinion :)

Don’t kill my motivation

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Have you thought about something?

Until you are in a certain age people keep asking you “what do you want to be when you grow up?”.
When you’re five they expect you to answer astronaut or maybe rockstar. When you’re a bit older they expect you to say nurse or maybe teacher.

There is one thing I can’t understand. It’s like we have to be “something”. Everything else is confusing people. Just because you don’t have a title doesn’t mean you are no one. Right?

A part of this is: Who says just because you are a nurse, you have to have that job for the rest of your life. No one!

Next time someone asks me I’ll say when I grow up I want to be Bonnie Tyler and own a show like Oprah. Dah! The funny thing is people still asks me and I’m 25. Haha!

I made biscotti today :) delicious!

Eurovision Song Contest, here we come

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For six weeks have we been following the competitors in “Melodifestivalen“, thank god it’s over.

We thought either Danny, or Loreen would win. Loreen won, pretty good because the song is kind of international.. I thought Molly Sandén was pretty good too..

The next question is, how will it go for Loreen in the big competition? Maybe on 4th place (at least?), we’ll have to wait until May to see.. and by then I guess everyone in this country will have heard that song at least 99 times :)

11 Questions, pass them on :)

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Who has had the most influence on you?

My ex-class mates. Full stop.

What is one childhood event that helped to shape your present self?

Spending a lot of time at my parent’s workplace, I met a lot of people and learned much about people too.

What’s your favourite candy?

Pretty much everything that’s colorful lol! Like jelly hearts.

Cream or milk in your tea/coffee/hot chocolate? 

Milk (1,5 % fat) in my coffee. Absolutely nothing i my tea.

What is your favourite form of exercise?

Running, I love running!

What book do you highly recommend?

I prefer magazines over books, otherwise non fictional books.

What country would you like to visit?

I want to go to New York, I know that’s not a country :)

How do you like your veggies cooked?

I don’t like when they’re over cooked, should be a little crispy in the middle :)

When is the best time to take a vacation?

In May, perfect temperature pretty much everywhere and the flowers bloom..

Who is your favourite tv family?

hmm.. I don’t know.. I don’t think I wantch enough TV.

What blog should I check out?

http://www.eating-for-england.com/ and this blog, because I found the questions there http://madtante.wordpress.com/2012/03/05/meme-slut-11-questions-from-lovelylici/

I’m not going to use ugly words..because I love life!

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Gosh! I just want to say go and #€&(!!”###!!! yourselves!! Whoooaaa!

I was so reminded of my past today. I’m not saying anything more. I need to pull myself together!  I need to do my best, not be lazy and fool around. I know it’s possible, and if anyone says anything else, shut up! Whooaa! I’m getting angry :) during the last year I heard too many, you’ll never manage that, and you are too blah blah and too blah blah! Prove me I’m wrong! Who says you’re right? After (I think) the worst week in my life, with constant pain, I feel full of energy! And do you know what? EVERYTHING is possible in your mind, and EVERYTHING starts with a thought! I’ll get myself a job, and THEN, when I have a job, Erik has promised we’ll go on vacation! I want to go to London again :)

Step one is to set your goals, step to figure out small steps to reach them!

Today, I have moved on!! Thank god, it feels so good..!!

The sun is shining, the birds are singing, the flowers bloom, I feel great, and I think this weekend will be good too! Bring it on.. I’m ready!!

You can’t count on teeth

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..I have realized that. I really hope this s**t is over soon. The day after I have had the tooth pulled out it hurt, but not that much. Tuesday was painful. Wednesday (yesterday) was incredibly painful, and I had to call my dentist so he could prescribe stronger pain killers. Which of course didn’t work, at all, but made me feel drunk and sick. Last night my whole face swelled, yuk! I sad to Erik “thank god it’s dark so you don’t have to see me” LOL! Then my throat swelled too. Embarrassing, but Erik had to stay at home from work, because in the morning I had difficulties breathing. Thank god it feels a little bit better now. I couldn’t not believe this could happen.. ouch! When my cheekbone doesn’t hurt anymore I’ll eat an apple LOL! Usually I love yoghurt, I can’t say I do that now..

Tomorrow is a new day :) hopefully a better day, bring it on :)

Afraid of the dentist, me?

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When I was little I was afraid of the dentist. I don’t know if afraid is strong enough to describe my fear :) I remember how the dentist pulled me in my legs while I was grabbing the edge of a table, I was basically hanging in the air, haha! But that was 20 years ago

When I was eleven or twelve some teeth popped up in my mouth, why? And I had to have them pulled out. It was a nightmare for me, and the dentist. Four teeth! Ouch!

I have an appointment on Friday. Believe me this is POSITIVE THINKING! A couple od hours ago I caught myself thinking:

-What am I afraid of? Of the pain? maybe..

-I shouldn’t be thinking about this..

-I have to think positive.. it’s just thoughts. And my thoughts makes me feel this way (Ok, I know that’s not 100% correct, but anyway..)

-What have I been afraid of.. ahh to talk in front of a lot of people.. but I love that now, I could do that 7 days a week.. strange!

-Ahh and I know what advice I would give a friend.. you have to trick your body, let it know you’re relaxed.. remember the brain doesn’t understand the word NOT. I have to breathe, hahaha!

-OMG! how can I be thinking about this, it’s silly!! Compose yourself.

-haha! if they told me now I had to pull out a tooth, I don’t think I would be too afraid. I think I can do it..hahaha!

Thank god, I know I’ll survive!

Playgrounds are for children, right?

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Yesterday we (Erik and I) took a walk, and we walked by this playground. OMG! When I see something like this I wish I was 5 years old LOL! Why didn’t they build things like these in the early 90′s? We had to walk in there just to take a look. Then we passed a skateboard “park”. I mean watch out so you don’t fall down there.. It looks incredibly dangerous :)

Anyways, I don’t have a job, but I have this stupid idea to apply for one job every day. Haha! I’ve finished school. If you didn’t know.. all this means I’m kind of unemployed. I’m NOT used to this and it feels like I’m going crazy. Last year I had three jobs at the same time, which on the other hand wasn’t good for me.. It’s had to find a balance. Last week I took a walk to a pet shop (is that what you call it?) and looked at the guinea pigs and rabbits. Talk about wasting your time. This is just NOT my style, but I have promised myself not to work in an old people’s home again. Ever! I could almost start going to church, and pray, so I won’t have to do it, so I really hope I’ll find a job soon :)

Hope you all are having a good start on the week. I like Mondays!

Skånetrafiken, what’s wrong??

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That’s a very good question. On Skånetrafiken‘s website it says that during weekends you can take your bike with you, you just have to buy a”bike ticket”. I decid that I want to ride my bike in Malmö, so I take my bike to the bus stop..BUT listen, do you know what happens then..

- I want to take my bike with me?

- No you can’t!

- It says you can on the website, but only during weekends. You just have to buy a ticket.

- You have to put it on the back of the bus!!

- But I’m not tall enough..

- So what, if you can’t reach you can’t take your bike with you.

- %&#”!&%. That means that I can’t take my bike with me, because I’m not tall enough??

- yes!

I DID NOT go with that bus. I waited outside for 30 minutes in the freaking cold windy weather, for the next bus, to hear another bus driver say the same thing. This is crazy!! Do I have to bring a MAN with me wherever I go?!?

 

Do lazy days make you feel rested or unproductive?

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WordPress gave me a question so I’ll answer it :). Answer: both. Lazy days are good for me. This year has been kind of an exhausting year. If you can say you have a think tank, I think I have a lazy day tank. On the other hand I always have something that needs to be done, and sometimes I think about that too much which puts me in a bad mood. The good with with having a job is that you have free time, when you’re studying you always have something to do. Let this be a lazy weekend! :)

A picture of my sister. Lazy days, that is her thing :)

The Malmö version of The Great Wall of China

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Yes, thats true.

Malmö is divided into different “parts” and one of them is called Rosengård (Rose garden). Confession – I have never been there. Last week I asked (let’s not mention any names) (a part of me wanted to go, another part didn’t :) )if we couldn’t go shopping for groceries at City Gross (that has nothing to do with something gross LOL), but we didn’t because of the same reason as everyone else. This area of the city is known for being pretty rough, and I guess (I think I know, or I know) it’s true. But I mean people live there.. anyway..There is a very long and tall building there called Kinesiska muren (translated: The Great Wall of China). I can’t understand what it is with me and ugly places. I wrote ugly, if someone doesn’t agree, please excuse me for using a less good word to describe the place :).

 

 

Yuk!

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I hate the stupid situation that I’m in. I have two weeks until the thesis I’m writing should be done. I have spent the last 11/2 month on writing. Now, my tutor says I have to redo and rewrite like everything. It’s not so easy when they change their minds 46898631 times, it’s kind of bad for the writing process to get different advice every time you ask. Usually things work out :) but I’m just so freaking tired and sad, it’s better to say what you mean from the beginning – that’s my advice to tutors. :)

No I’m not angry! I’m not annoyed, I’m just impatient!

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 I think I have come to a conclusion!

But first.. Isn’t this just clever? I’m writing on this thesis, and honesltly I’m writing pretty much every day, BUT sometimes is the motivation quite low.. so what do I do? I open my closet and I pull out all the cloths and make a pile of clothes  in the middle of the room. Then I sort out everything I don’t “need” and I come to the colclusion that I don’t need like half of the clothes I own. Then I think.. oh I NEED (note that I write need, not want) to buy new clothes NOW! Then I think, but I need to write on the thesis..This is what I call a dilemma!

Anyway! I’m so glad we don’t have so many lectures now because it’s tiring. I think I’m that kind of person who needs some space and extra time for thinking because it’s good for me. If I don’t get that time I get in a quite bad mood. This bad mood is something I have had time for thinking about today.

I often say that I’m angry, but after all I”m not. I’m not an angry person, or the angry aggressive type.. I think you understand what I mean. Maybe I’m annoyed when I say I’m angry, but most of all I just think I’m impatient! When I say I’m angry it feels like nothing is happening, and I want something to happen NOW! Then I get kind of p*ssed off! But only because of myself, because I can’t take it easy, relax and just let things happen. Maybe because I’m a control freak sometimes. Not that I want everything under control, but I want like “a this is what might happen in the future plan”, like a first sketch of how things will turn out (everything is included in that plan, school, work..ha ha! everything).

This is my last semester at the university, and I need to find a job soon. I know I have to, and I will. Its just that right now, I’m tired. Not emotionally tired, but I have headache pretty often, my stomach make strange EXTREMELY EMBARRASING noises like nine hours/day. WHY? Coffee makes me feels sick, but I just had a cup anyway because I hadn’t had one for (I think) one week.

This is pretty much what is going on. I can fill my closet with new things, and I saved the clothes I like. I know it didn’t have to do with the fact that I’m 25 now, which I wasn’t yesterday, but sometimes you have to give yourself a kick in a new direction. Sometimes things need to happen, and you have to do something about it. So now I’ve started to move.. forward ;) and I’m happy about that. Only good things can come from this, and I’m just happy that things are so good right now.

Look at the flowers I got from Erik yesterday! I got a necklace too, and I liked it! Then we had cake, and I decided what to have for dinner LOL and since I’m kind of stupid or something I chose bagles and “Pucko” (that’s a kind chocolate milk, we had never tried it before so we had to).  We filled the bagles with guacamole and some other things like tomatoes and cucumber..

I think I have been thinking too much for a couple of days,  lol! Yesterday I was acting like a zombie, and today I forgot if I had used shampoo or not when I washed my hair so I had to wash it twice haha!

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Today was a strange day..

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Today when I went home from school I had the weirdest feeling in my body. It was just strange. My parents are in Dubai, Erik is not at home, neither my sister – means no phone calls or texts. Don’t interpret this as something bad. I woke up early this morning, went to school 3 hours later to study before the lecture. I had lunch, by my self. Took a walk in the city, by myself. After school I had a meeting with a teacher, and then I took the train and bus home. When I came to Malmö I thought “what the hell am I doing?” I caught myself in a strange feeling that I had the option to kind of do what I wanted and it felt so good. I needed to buy some things in the grocery store, but instead of doing it where I live I walked by Hemköp. Something was wrong with the thing that reads the code on the “products” the scanner? so I didn’t have to pay full price – the guy who worked there didn’t know how to change it so he just said “just because it’s you, you don’t have to pay”. LOL! It’s never that I feel lonely, and actually I like to be alone sometimes – but today it was different. I was alone, but it felt better than it has ever done before. I think you can say that it was longing for something but in a good way, to have the trust or something. Anyway it was good.

A Lesson in Communication

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A couple of weeks ago I took a walk with a friend. As usually I was thinking about everything and nothing, which some people might consider less good, but what then happened was pretty interesting. I think I apologized for walking to slowly when she explained to me that she didn’t care because she was thinking so much about what I currently was thinking about her, that she didn’t care about anything else. I had never thought about that before, and it maade me feel so ashamed. It also made me feel sad, because if you think so much about something you can’t see all the other things around you, you’ll miss so much.

I read a book this morning called Mera Självkänsla (More Self-esteem) by Mia Törnblom. Self-esteem is a complicated concept. Sometimes you have to scrutinize yourself to be able to see things in other people, to be like a blank sheet of paper that doesn’t judge. That is hard, and it’s never possible to be 100% non-judging because we all have our own mental schemes and experiences. I guess that we sometimes need to do a self-evaluation, a self-development plan, to stop and try to see things more clearly.

I wonder if self-esteem is just about you. Is it just that you can’t see your own self-worth? Things are never that easy, are they. I have had friends before who (I guess had low self-esteem) just thought about themselves. Isn’t that kind of strange after all, if you can’t se your own self-worth you keep on thinking about yourself anyway. It might sound more normal to think about other people in that case, but isn’t that the case. People with low self-esteem think much about other people, but not really about them, but about how they see you. How other people see you is something we can’t know for sure (or maybe in some situations) until we communicate.

Once in a while we all end up in a little self-esteem dip. And what can we do about that. I think it’s sad with people who create a low self-esteem title for themselves so they can justify their own behaviour = they don’t have to do anything about their situation. It’s like saying: I have low self-esteem and that means I find it hard to trust other people and I can’t do this and that, and this means there’s nothing to do about it.

What I think we should do more often is to find trust in other people. Kay Pollack writes in his book “Att växa genom möten” (To grow through meetings) that everything we do, we do because we want to give love or because we want to be loved. Think about that. When I say we should find trust in other people, I don’t mean we should do stupid things and be careless in some way or another, but that we can’t get if we don’t give. And sometimes we also need to get – life is about sharing – and first then can we give. What we just have to learn is that people give in different ways, some through words, other through hugs. Sometimes we have to learn to read each other’s languages – but then we are back where we started. It’s all about communication. Shared communication.

To end this I want to quote Kay Pollack “Varje människa du möter är din lärare” (Every person you meet is your teacher). I learned a lesson, and I’m very thankful for that. I think it made me more humble.

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An Update – New Sleeping Patterns & New Clothes

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• Lately I’ve been falling asleep too early, which means I been waking up too early too, way too early! Not good.
• I’ve also caught a cold, and it feels like I’m about to cough up my lungs, not very funny.
• Last week I also decided I wanted to do something new, so I clean my apartment and threw out all the stuff I didn’t want + all the clothes I didn’t want. This means I have to buy new clothes – what a problem! People must think I’m crazy LOL! But sometimes it just feels like I’ve had enough, and then I want something new! Sometimes that just happens, it feels like yesterday was ages away, not just some hours. That’s strange.
• I’ve also decided that I want to spend some time on “feeling better”, I do too much things sometimes, and stress is no good for you! It’s your own responsibility, sometimes you think: I can’t say “no” to this or that, but honestly, sometimes you do. If you feel good, you can share that with other people..
• I’m probably going to IKEA this week :) that’s always fun ha ha! Last year when I lived where I lived before I moved last time ha ha! I went to Ikea one day and I realized it felt more like “at home” there than it did wher I lived. That made me pack all my stuff in boxes and move in three weeks. That was a very good decision. Otherwise I’m kin of allergic to Ikea:nized homes ;)

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Today in a Few Words

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Boring. Boring. Boring! (I’m laughing).

By accident, I fell asleep yesterday.. at like 21:30. That’s no good! Why? Because I woke up 6:30 this morning and was wide awake! Then I thought: oh well I can do some things for school, and that was what I did until the clock was 8:30. I cleaned, washed, had lunch, did nothing at all, read a boring book, went to Burger King and bought an ice cream, called my sister.. now I had to take a 40 minutes bike ride because I’m not exactly tired. Boring, boring, boring! Next weekend I’ll see if I can’t meet up with some friends or something.  I’m not used to having so little to do!! Isn’t that just strange!? Normally I have 10 000 things going on, but not now. I bet this is meant to be, ha ha! I have to change something..

OH I WAS WRONG, I WOKE UP AT 5:30!!! THAT’S INSANE! LOL!

I have pretty much already done everything I planned doing this (next) week, I’m too efficient!

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A Lot of Things to Do.

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Currently I have more than just a bunch of things going on, and that’s why I’m not good at writing comments :) if anyone is wondering. I’ll be at this course Wednesday through Friday, and then I guess I have to do all the things I’ll miss in school during the weekend. Life can seem hard sometimes, but eyes on the target! ;) ..and focus. Where focus goes energy flows :)

Thoughts: Being the youngest. Being the Oldest. Being a Leader. Taking Care of a Sick Child.

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Thoughts:

• Taking care of a sick child: Today I’ve been taking care of a sick child. Ear ache and fever. A new experience, I hope it wasn’t contagious.
• Being a leader: In school we learn a lot about how to be a good leader. There are many approaches. We have been taught that in Japan and other countries stress is not a big problem. We have also been taught that in those countries people do everything to save each other’s faces – it’s all about the group. That makes me wonder if anyone would tell if the felt really stressed. The reason to why they don’t have this problem is (as we’ve been taught) because the social support that the group-thing brings prevents stress. This is just a cultural difference, I know. If this is the case, we don’t experience the same kind of stress and then I guess we (who don’t live in those countries) can’t measure it either? Gosh, everything is relative!
• Being the oldest: Being the oldest in a group of people, is an experience. Age doesn’t say everything. But it’s kind of both scary and funny to see people go through things that you went through yourself five or six years ago. I think that I still think ha ha! that when you turn 21 or around that age, some things happen in your brain, and you start to look at things in different ways than before.
• Being the youngest: That is a strange feeling, and it might sound easy to be the youngest one of a bunch of people because you’ll have people around you who are older and wiser than you. People who can help you understand all the things you haven’t learned yet. I have realized that’s not always the case. The difficult thing is that people who are older than you think they’re always right just because of their age (the older you are the more you know), and if you’re younger you can’t know if they’re right because you just can’t. Or sometimes you do, but then you have to work 10 times harder than the other ones, just to prove that you’re right. There is also a scary feeling when you talk and the people who are older than you actually listen and do what you tell them to, or agree with you, because you can almost be sure that in a day or two they are going to change their minds and be against you ha ha! Life is just complicated sometimes.

Other things:

• My neighbors are moving. I hope someone is going to rent their apartment and use it as an office, gosh, I’m so boring!
• Tomorrow I’ll get the new shower :). They texted me 6:27 this morning to tell me. EARLY!!!
• We have quite much to do in school, but not more than you handle it.
• My headache is starting to disappear – I hope I can go running on Wednesday.

This Is When Facebook Becomes Awkward

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facebook, life, thoughts, updates

I saw these status updates today (from the same person). In this order. Does anyone want to hug me? Does anyone dare to kiss me? I love all my friends and family! I love you <3.

Ok, I don’t want to be rude, but something in my stomach is moving in the wrong direction (upwards) when I read this. This is just awkward. Even more awkward when I say: there was one guy who had clicked ” I like” on all three updates. Do I have to say more, no I don’t think so.